the common question comes up AGAIN

my new independent living services worker just left my place. we filled out another application for another apartment in new york and we went to my primary care doctor's office first of all before we filled out the application. when we were at the primary care doctor's office, the primary care doctor asked me, "so.. how is that new york apartment thing going?" i feel like everyone has been asking me this lately (as if they expect me to either tell them how i'll be moving there tomorrow or how it didn't work out and i don't know what i was thinking by trying to move to another state or some shit). maybe it's just me being paranoid and overly-self-conscious about other people asking me my business.. like no one seemed to give a fuck about me earlier and now that i wanna just take my shit and say "fuck this place" .. people actually give a shit. whatever. just let me do my damn thing and duck outta this shithole. well.. it's not really a shithole per say but people need to mind their damn business and help those who actually need to be helped when they actually need to be helped. i still cannot get past my therapist's question of "what about your family? you have no family in new york.." well.. it's not like my fuckin family really helped me in the first god damn place. the ONLY family who EVER did ANYTHING for me after my grandma died was my cousin amanda (also my godmother) and her mom (my aunt, my grandma's sister and other godmother) debbie. it took THAT far away of a relative to give a fuck about me.. well, one might say it's not that far but it could be a closer relative doing things for me.. like say- MY MOTHER. oh well.. i guess she has her own business going on though. like with her OTHER DAUGHTER. oh well.. i don't need anyone's help to do what i want or get where i want, i have my own life.